Not working during the summer months, it becomes all too easy to just say the hell with it and go out into the world as my old self. I'm just not very motivated during these months of leisure and to be Kelly, it takes a hell of a lot of work, work that I sometimes just don't feel like doing. Being Greg is so much easier and as I've said many, many times before, I don't get any stares when I go out as Greg. I look like a guy in every possible way and nothing is going to ever change any of that. I actually kind of dread having to go back to work, not because of the work itself, but because it becomes such a hassle to find the energy and strength to become someone that I sometimes think I should have kept hiding.