Valentines Day and How I Learned To Ignore It

Valentines Day is tomorrow and all across the country, couples in love will celebrate the holiday by going out to dinner and exchanging gifts of flowers, jewelry and other, less romantic gifts. Time was, it would have depressed me, but today I'm okay with the whole idea that tens of millions of people are happily together, or at least pretending to be happily together. Good for them and I hope that they have a great time tomorrow, I wish them nothing but the best. That being said, it would be nice to have at least one date from time to time.

I really have no idea if that will ever happen or not, but one can always be hopeful. With the exception of my brief infatuation with a married teacher I used to work with, I really haven't shown much interest in women or men. Yeah, I've seen lots of cute guys and hot girls, but it's always been nothing more than a simple physical attraction that passes the second that person walks away. Still, there is one woman that I work with that I would most certainly ask out were I not in the process of changing genders. She's a few years older than me, has a really great job, is single and pretty much makes me feel gaga. Nothing will come of it as I won't act on my feelings, so great is my fear of rejection and disappointment. Still, it's nice to know that someone does make me feel alive again.

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3 comments:

Kara | February 14, 2008 at 6:00 PM

Just ask her out to lunch and have a conversation....build a friendship.

KellyGirl | February 14, 2008 at 8:36 PM

Hi Kara,

She and I have become pretty good friends and I really do like being around her, but the thing is, she's a special ed. placement specialist, which means she's almost always out at schools and thus it's been difficult to set up a lunch "date" though we are trying to find a time.

She does get me and isn't turned off by any of this so we'll see what happens.

K.

JACQ | February 16, 2008 at 12:21 PM

I know what you mean about V Day. I'm not a huge fan of it, either.

Missi and I are going out to dinner with friends this evening. Neither one of us really cared about it. I'm SOOOOO GLAD about that!!!!