This and That

1. With just two days to go, I feel very optimistic about things. I still think that the national vote will be closer than the polls but that Obama will win the electoral college by a landslide. The electoral college of course is what matters, though I would love to get rid of it. Living in a blue city in a red state, my vote and the votes of most of Jefferson County (Louisville) won't really matter. Kentucky is going to go for McCain and no matter how high the turnout is in Jefferson County, it won't be enough to flip this to Obama. That being said, the large African-American population in Louisville will turn out in droves to vote for Obama, as will most of the white population in the urban service boundry, and that will give our incumbent representative, Democrat John Yarmuth, more than enough votes to cruise to re-election. Yarmuth is one of the good guys, a real liberal, and has been a wonderful congressman. He should win by aroudn 15% in this district which only includes Jefferson County.

2. I'll have my final election predictions tomorrow night.

3. The time change really bites ass. While I love the weather in fall and winter, I hate the fact that the fall back in clocks makes it get dark so early. The sun set shortly after 6 today, a good 4 hours later than it did in June. As much as I hate the summer weather around here, hot and humid, I do love that it doesn't get dark till 10 or so. We'll continue to lose daylight till the winter solstice and then slowly recover as winter turns to spring.

4. Speaking of winter, I really hope we get a lot of snow this year. We had two big storms last winter, one 10 inches and the other 15, and I'd love to see a repeat. Things just look so much prettier with snow on the ground.

5. It looks like I'll be heading up to Chicago next weekend. Dr. Z, after learning about how pissed off I am, wants to see me face to face. I really didn't want to go but he's paying my way so it's the least I can do. At this point, nearly a year and a half post-op, I really could care less about the astethetics. The fact that I am still experiencing pain this far out just pisses me off and I want it fixed. No one that I have talked to experienced anything like this, which doesn't surprise me one bit. I've had nothing but bad luck and I'd give anything in the world to go back in time and undo things.

6. Speaking of undoing things, I've been hesitant to talk about the whole Christine Daniels saga. For those who don't know, Christine was the Los Angeles Times sportswriter who transitioned last year. Well, without explanation, Christine is now back to being Mike Penner, her old self. Despite being very public about her transition from Mike to Christine, the Times and Mike have been very quiet about the reasons for de-transitioning. I really could care less as to why he did what he did, it's his business and I support him 100%, but it did get me thinking about my own transition and the always there possibility of going back to Greg.

It's no secret that things haven't exactly turned out that great and going back to being Greg is never far from my mind. I've spent all weekend doing just that and it's been pretty cool. I actually kind of dread having to go back to girl this week but it's something I have to do. Truth is, I miss a lot about being Greg. I miss hanging out with the guys, talking sports, the weather and just doing guy things. I miss the camping trips we used to take, the poker games I'm never invited to and the ease in which I'm able to walk through the world. I miss little things like not having to shave my legs, peeing standing up and not worrying about what I'm going to wear. I miss being in the dating scene and I'd just love to have a girlfriend again.

When I transitioned, I knew that things would never be the same and that once I announced my intentions to the world, there was no really going back. Sure, I could go back to Greg but it wouldn't be the same. It would always be in the back of peoples minds and they would always wonder if I would change my mind again. If I were to actually go through with it, I suppose I would have to move and start fresh someplace else. It's tempting, very tempting, but right now, I'm just not sure if going back is quite the right thing to do. So, I keep bouncing back and forth, doing Kelly during the week and Greg on the weekend. I've though about getting off the hormones but so far I've stuck with them. We'll see what happens.

7. I've found a new television show that I just love. Thursday nights have become my favorite night of TV. At 8 we have Ugly Betty and 9 brings me Dr. McDreamy. Following the goings on at Seattle Grace Hospital, I now get to watch Life on Mars, a delightful new show about a NYC police detective who gets hit by a car and wakes up in 1973. I know it's far fetched, but so is Lost and I love that. If you haven't seen it yet, check it out on Thursday nights at 10 on ABC.

8. Speaking of TV, I thought I would share the shows I watch:
Sunday: Sunday night football, The Dirty Housewives.
Monday: Terminator: The Sarah Conner Chronicles (Just love my Lena), CSI Miami and I DVR Boston Legal.
Tuesday: Countdown with Keith Olbermann.
Wednesday: Pushing Daisies, Private Practice and Dirty Sexy Money (Just love it)
Thursday: Ugly Betty, Grey's Anatomy, Life on Mars
Friday: College Football and Numbers
Saturday: College Football and SNL

Once Lost comes back, well, that will be my favorite. Can't wait for the new season to start.