But putting the proverbial pen to paper always makes me feel better. I really have no idea what it was, no one thing stands out in my mind, but today has not been one of my better days. From time to time, I'm just overcome with this incredible sense of sadness and grief, today is one of those times. Anyways, as day turned to night, my mood remained somber and thoughts of drifting off to sleep fill my head. Unfortunately, on days like today, I simply want that sleep to be it, to never wake again.