It's turning into one of those weeks where I begin to have serious doubts about myself. As I've been doing research with regards to SRS, I've come across a lot of blogs that feature girls who have also had facial feminization surgery. Without fail, all of them have had far better results than I had. It's depressing and it makes me so angry. I always considered that surgery the most important one and I still feel the same way, but now, nearly a year later, I still find myself wondering what in the hell happened to me. Why did it turn out to be such a fucking disaster? Why were the results of my surgery so much worse than nearly all of his other patients? I know it's self-pity and I hate feeling this way, but I had such high hopes and to see them totally dashed just hurts like you cannot believe.
More later as right now I'm just too upset.